i do NOT want this to sound like a "whoa is me" post. i do not in anyway think that my life is horrible or unfair. i just want to express what i am going through so that i might encourage others in knowing that they are not alone. with that said... i am overwhelmed. i feel like i am treading water every minute of every day. i can't remember not feeling this way. i want to be healthy in my body, but first i need to find how to be healthy in my soul... i know i can, i just have to find the right plan to get me there. i keep wishing that i had a big DO OVER button. i would like to start over with my money, my house, my marriage and my health, knowing what i know now. the task of having to clean out my habits and the garbage i have accrued in the past 14 years is daunting.
i have decided to go one step at a time with the one thing i know that is a constant in my life. GOD. i am going to start living Galatians 5:22 & 23 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control...
one fruit at a time i am going to study and live what i believe it means in the name of God. the first being LOVE. i will pull this into three parts: love for God, love for myself, and love for others. i will not move on until i feel that i have gotten it and made it into a habit in my life. please continue to send me emails letting me know about what you are doing to move into a healthy lifestyle. i need to hear from you as much as i need you to hear what i am saying.
